Hello anyone who reads this. First I need to apologize for lying. I know that on my last blog I said that it was going to be my last bog entry, but I have something I want to say. It has been a hard year, but I can honestly say that after this last weekend, I am happier than ever.
For those of you who have read some of my blog, you know I was raised Mormon. Earlier this year I left the Mormon Church for theological reasons. Keeping it short, it just doesn't make sense anymore. The only reason I mention this is because after leaving the church, I lost a lot of friends. People who I had considered very close friends, and some for almost all of my life, couldn't accept that choice that I made. That and, I didn't know what to do with my life, church things took up a lot of my time. So this pain started to grow inside, which in reality I didn't even notice until it was released. But more on that in a bit.
Anyway, in my search of something to do, I turned to different diaper forums online. I hadn't been to one for a while because well, I just hadn't. The forums had helped me accept myself as a DL, and so I didn't have the need like I did before. So I returned to find events happening in Denver. The first one that I agreed to go to, everyone else ditched out, and I was at the bar by myself. So that sucked and hurt more than I thought that it would.
After some time, I decided to give it another try. This time I went to fetlife.com and checked out their events. From there I found a discussion group that meets monthly to discuss different topics about everything diaper related. The next discussion topic was about ageplay, focusing in on how to be an effective big. While I don't do any ageplay, I decided to go. BEST. DECISION. EVAR!!
During the night I didn't say much in the group, but I felt so amazingly supported and just accepted. There was a whole group of people there, most where ageplayers, I was the only DL, but everyone was on the diaper fetish spectrum. After the discussion, everyone stayed around and talked. I got to talk with other real life diaper wearers. It felt so amazing. While there I felt that pain that I didn't even realize was building up in my chest just disappear. Literally I started crying as I drove home from the release of that pain. When I close my eyes, I can still see everyones' faces and feel their acceptance.
I want to say this, if there is anyone out there who is reading this who is a AB/DL, please check out fetlife.com. The discussion group is part of the RACK Room Studio. I highly recommend that you come out and join one. It will do wonders.
